This is in response to fan mail:
I was wondering if you could tell us a little bit about your first
I’m sure a lot of your fans would love to hear about it in great detail
if you’re willing to share.
How old were you? How did it happen? Where did it happen? How big
was the guy? How did it feel? How did he fuck you? How long did it
Give us all the horny details…we get off on that shit…lol.
Well, I was 14 almost 15 years old…he was 17 almost 18, and just moved from NJ. He got put into my homeroom class by mistake. I fell in love with him the first time I saw him. His name is Patrick. He was sponsored by a skateboard company, but got in trouble with “mommy” so she sent him to Tampa. He has the prettiest skin, cute little dreads, perfect pouty mouth…his smile melts me to this day… thick legs and ass, and a nice big dick. He was my boyfriend from then(1996) all the way up until I got into the porn biz in 2001. He actually attempted to do my first BG scene…but that’s a WHOLE different, yet entertaining story, in it’s self lol.
I wasn’t raised racist…my immediate family, I guess would be considered a bit hippy like, but I did grow up in a town where racism was pretty prevalent. It was still a “no no” in my area. I only dated white men….mostly women( I guess I would’ve been considered a lesbian until I was about 15, really…still questioning myself now lol.) Being with Patrick was a similar experience like it was switching from female to male…it was completely an “unknown”…The guilt I experienced is unexplainable even to this day. I felt like a terrible person for loving someone so much, yet feeling physically uncomfortable around him. We didn’t have sex for the first 6 months we dated. He never pushed me to have sex with him…even though I wanted him to. I guess I pressured him into it.
He walked me home from school one day. My mom was at work. I knew what was going to happen…he didn’t hehe. We watch some TV…well, he watch some while I was playing with his dick and attempting to suck it. He seemed uncomfortable. I thought it was because we were in the living room. So… I got up, went to the bathroom to take off my clothes, came out naked and held out my hand gesturing him to come to my mom’s room with me. To this day, I’ve never had a man so hesitant to follow me to a bed! He laid down, pulled down his pants and I proceeded to suck his dick. I grinded my wet pussy on the outside of his boxes for what seemed like eternity! I put my hands down his boxes to reach for his dick and noticed he already came! WTF? He apologized and said, “It’s been a really long time.”
Now, I know this story probably didn’t go how you expected. After being with him for another 2 years he finally admitted he was a virgin. So, it had been “a loooong time” lol. I trained him very well. Some of the best sex and love of my life! There is a VERY lucky girl out there right now. I hope he reads this and contacts me…pissed off or not…I miss him. I haven’t talk to him for 3 years. He was my best friend after we broke up in 2001…stayed that way until he disappeared on me. He had a girlfriend that didn’t like our relationship. Which I understand… But if you’re reading this, Pat, I love you and miss our friendship…and our dog. How’s Herbie doing?